When I was little, I had my future all figured out.
Where when why and how, not a singular doubt.
Now that it’s impending, and I’m almost eighteen,
I feel intimidated and scared; I’m no longer watching from behind the scenes.
I’m hoping that one day, I’ll have a revelation,
But right now, I’m stuck, like a train in a station.
When people ask me what I’ll be,
I tell them ‘I don’t know’.
I don’t know what I’ll be, all I hope is that I’ll still be me.
I want to have the answers, and know the correct path
But right now I am clueless, and life is happening fast.
Majors, minors, future career,
All used to be exciting but now they’re my biggest fear.
“It’s okay, you’ll know when it’s time” they say,
I just really hope that the moment will come and stay.
I want to be basic, but I want to be unique.
I just can’t decide, is it just me?
In ten years or so, I will give you a better clue,
But right now, when you ask, this is what I’ll tell you,
As blunt as newly fallen snow,
I simply don’t know.
- Class of 2020